MIDNIGHT THOUGHTS #2

Please, tell me.

Why?

Why do you do that?

Why?

Why do you see me like Prince Charming see Cinderella?

When I couldn't see myself.

Why?

Why do you like my smell?

When I think that my smell is the worst things ever.

Why?

Why do you smile at me?

When I couldn't smile at myself.

Why?

Why do you love me?

When I couldn't love myself like you loved me.

Please, tell me.

How?

How could you do that?

How?

How could you find my eyes in the crowd?

When I'm just a dust in the Milky Way.

How?

How could you see me like I'm the most beautiful flower in your garden?

When people see me like an ordinary leaves in the tree.

How?

How could you smile at me like I'm the kindest person you ever meet?

When people never realize that I'm still exist.

How?

How could you praise me?

When people always strike me down.

How?

How could you comfort me?

When I was dumped by someone.

How?

How could you love me with all of your heart?

When

When

When I think

I'm not the person who proper to feel the love.

MIDNIGHT THOUGHTS #2: WHY AND HOW

Sincerely yours,

Sinta xoxo

MIDNIGHT THOUGHTS #1

I think, I've never felt it again.

After all which I saw.

After everything which happened.

After something that I lost in the past.

I think, It never comes to me again.

Traumatic.

Surviving.

Sinking in the deep of my fantasies.

I think, I've lost it since I never know.

Feel cold.

Lost.

Dark.

And that was a hurricane inside of me.

I think, I never get something which I always wondered it.

All of my fairy tale.

Fantasies.

Dreams.

That no one become a reality.

I think, I'm too stubborn to feel it.

Too independent.

Too lazy.

Too arrogant.

Because I don't need someone.

I think, I am strong enough.

From the cover.

But inside.

Still same.

Not alone, but, too busy to think it. 

I think, that was an ordinary Saturday.

Bored.

Random.

Full of lots shit trouble.

Nothing special in the whole day.

I think, that was an ordinary 11 A.M

Then I saw.

Smile.

Bright.

Harm.

Lights.

Then,

Everything has changed.

I think.

I think.

I think.

From that day, I changed it to I learn.

 I learn to understand, what I should understand

About something that makes you happy.

And.

I think.

No.

I learn.

To feel it again.

I learn to erase that.

Traumatic.

Cold.

Dark.

And also the hurricane.

With something brighter.

After a long time.

I learn to welcoming.

I learn to survive what I should surviving for. 

Because that makes me stronger.

After all that happens.

I learn to see that bright smile.

I learn to feel that harmful in the strong arms.

Now, I can.

Loving that bright lights. 

MIDNIGHT THOUGHTS #1 : I THINK

sincerely yours,

Sinta xoxo