MIDNIGHT THOUGHTS #1

I think, I've never felt it again.

After all which I saw.

After everything which happened.

After something that I lost in the past.

I think, It never comes to me again.

Traumatic.

Surviving.

Sinking in the deep of my fantasies.

I think, I've lost it since I never know.

Feel cold.

Lost.

Dark.

And that was a hurricane inside of me.

I think, I never get something which I always wondered it.

All of my fairy tale.

Fantasies.

Dreams.

That no one become a reality.

I think, I'm too stubborn to feel it.

Too independent.

Too lazy.

Too arrogant.

Because I don't need someone.

I think, I am strong enough.

From the cover.

But inside.

Still same.

Not alone, but, too busy to think it. 

I think, that was an ordinary Saturday.

Bored.

Random.

Full of lots shit trouble.

Nothing special in the whole day.

I think, that was an ordinary 11 A.M

Then I saw.

Smile.

Bright.

Harm.

Lights.

Then,

Everything has changed.

I think.

I think.

I think.

From that day, I changed it to I learn.

 I learn to understand, what I should understand

About something that makes you happy.

And.

I think.

No.

I learn.

To feel it again.

I learn to erase that.

Traumatic.

Cold.

Dark.

And also the hurricane.

With something brighter.

After a long time.

I learn to welcoming.

I learn to survive what I should surviving for. 

Because that makes me stronger.

After all that happens.

I learn to see that bright smile.

I learn to feel that harmful in the strong arms.

Now, I can.

Loving that bright lights. 

MIDNIGHT THOUGHTS #1 : I THINK

sincerely yours,

Sinta xoxo